A New Look

Blood sugar: 16.2
So today was my first day at New Look, and I awoke to a lovely blood sugar of 32.5. Panicking, I injected a load of insulin and I’ve been on my feet all day and it’s only just come down to 16 so I’m a little gutted. I’m putting it down to the stress of starting a new job, but I’m not sure. I want to go to the gym tonight but I have a feeling I’ll be way too tired; I haven’t worked for an entire year and just a few hours knackers me out. I’m at home now waiting to go to the diabetes centre for a full MOT and then it’s back to work until 6pm.

I’m nervous about the diabetes centre; I’m having my eyes checked and I’m so scared they might turn round and tell me I’m losing my sight. If they do, I’ll just need to deal with it as best I can. Fingers crossed nothing’s wrong. I know I already have nerve damage in my feet and possibly my hands as I get foot pain and pins and needles quite a lot, but I think I’m lucky to only have that at this point. I also know my growth was stunted, I was meant to be 5ft 8/ft 9ish and I’m 5ft 4 but that might change if good control prevails. I shall update  later to say what happened at the check up. My HBA1C will be rubbish, beware!

Tom is off to Canada on Sunday and I’m dreading it, I’m going to miss him so much. So so much. 10 days at his was lovely and it was weird coming home.. weird as hell. It was nice to be back in my room, though. I guess. I’m excited for September – though the access course here is full the one in Bristol isn’t so I’m going to look in to moving there and hopefully going in to student halls and it’s likely that I’m eligable for a bursary to help with living costs. I’m really happy about that, I’ve written to the welfare team to see if I could get some help and I’m waiting to hear back. Fingers and toes crossed!

May 11, 2009. diabetes, New Look.